Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Memories

Loving people is part of life. Losing those special to us  is unfortunately also part of the life process.
Two years ago on March 10th I lost a very special person in my life. 
I lost my paternal grandmother.

Not only is March 10th the day we lost this dear lady from our lives but for me its a little bit more. You see March 10th also happens to be my birthday (I am not trying to be "poor me") . So I get to celebrate the day I came into this world and the day my grandma left. I am so happy that she is no longer in pain  but as the day nears I can't help but feel a little bit sad as I remember the things that I don't get to share with her now. 

I didn't get to share my engagement, bridal shower and wedding day with her. I won't get to share the life of my first child with her (NO I am not pregnant) among all the other little and big things that will happen in my life. 

But as I remember and think of all the things I won't get to share with her I recall all that I did get to share and think about all those things to brighten up the cloudy skies in the near future as it draws closer to March 10th.

 I spent almost every weekend and school vacation at my grandparents house. Don't get me wrong, my parents didn't ship me there because they didn't want me around or anything, I went there because they both worked full-time jobs and I LOVED being at GRANDMA'S HOUSE! I spent so much time there either by myself or with my multitude of cousins.

 Grandma and I in '07

My grandmother watched the girls next door which happen to be my cousins on the other side of my family. Those cousins would be Amanda and Sonya. You can read some of Amanda's memories in this post at Where There is Love, There is Life. Us girls baked cookies, fought, and road our bikes on the flats, all under my grandmothers watchful eye.

 I know that my whole family misses her and that we all are glad that she is not in pain/confused anymore. My grandmother suffered from 16+ strokes and had a little dementia towards the end of her life. She couldn't remember me when I would stand in front of her but would ask others about me and how I was doing. In essence I lost my grandmother about a year before she died because she couldn't remember me from the next person.


Me, Sonya and Amanda ( Cousins)






L to R: Grandma, Grammy (Grandma's Mom), Me and my Dad
Bethany, Me, Elizabeth (Cousins)










Her eternal love will always surrounds me and the rest of my family. It's in the simplest of forms. She is watching over us. She is the sun on  a cold winters day. She is the robin's song in the spring. She is love.
Kayla

2 comments:

  1. So sweet <3 She was and still is one of my most favorite people. We were all so lucky and blessed to have her in our lives.

    Great post, Kaylabee! xo

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  2. Agreed! I enjoyed reading this post and remembering "Mom" again. You had an amazing woman in your life! On March 10th we will wish you Happy Birthday and remember the life of a beautiful woman. <3

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